From where I stand, I can see those miles ahead of me. I try to fast forward so I can catch up. I want to accomplish it all, too. I want to stand beside them. I ponder on my long drives from here and there why this or that hasn’t happened yet. I worry I’m not enough. I feel overwhelmed at how far behind I seem. I get defeated by it. It comes and goes.
I’m an ambitious person. There’s no denying that. If you’ve met me, you know how passionate I am about what I do. As this type of person, it’s easy to get caught up on where I’m going, how fast I can get there, and so much of that can be sparked by seeing what others around you are getting to do. I don’t think there’s a person in this industry who hasn’t been jealous of someone else’s career, or even just an opportunity they’ve had. Let’s be honest.
I have to stop myself sometimes. I have to really force myself to look back on the last four years and focus on where I, myself, have grown. Our beginnings are so important because they shape us into the artist we will become. They strengthen us, harden us, and still enable us to be ourselves in an industry that has made it ok to have a voice.. a personality. If nothing else, I am learning that it’s much easier to squash negative thoughts by reminding myself how lucky I am just to be doing something I love so incredibly much. Becoming a mentor this year and watching other creatives struggle through the motions has also made me value those steps and missteps that have led me here. Those moments were so crucial in making me the entreprenuer I am today.
I have to remember that from where I stand, there are people walking the same path. They lie both ahead and behind me. They struggle, they get back up to dust themselves off, and they are hustling. They are feeling the same ways that I am, and they are making a decision each and every day to keep going. We are in line, climbing that ever-growing ladder of success, but we are together. This reminds me that I am not alone and that from where I stand, it ain’t so bad. <3
“Have patience with all things, but first with yourself. Never confuse your mistakes with your value as a human being. You are a perfectly valuable, creative, worthwhile person simply because you exist and no amount of triumphs or tribulations can ever change that.” | St. Francis de Sales
– Ash
September 16th, 2015 at 12:18 pm
This is such a good reminder and advice, Ashton!
September 16th, 2015 at 12:24 pm
OMG! This is stunning! So beautiful. <3 :)
September 16th, 2015 at 12:26 pm
My friend bought me a mug that says, “I will not compare myself to strangers on the internet.” It is a perfect reminder to me (as is this post!) to just keep moving forward, slowly but surely. Things don’t always happen overnight. As long as I am personally and professionally growing, that is success for me and it doesn’t matter what everyone else is doing. :)
September 16th, 2015 at 12:26 pm
Good advice and so well written. Also I love the wedding dress photo :)
September 16th, 2015 at 12:27 pm
Great advice!! Thanks for sharing.
September 16th, 2015 at 12:36 pm
Love this! So uplifting!
September 16th, 2015 at 12:43 pm
This post is so beautifully written! Yes!
September 16th, 2015 at 12:47 pm
Thanks for the honesty! I think we have all been there at some point. Love the quote “never compare your beginning to someone else’s middle” – it’s not easy, but it’s necessary to stay sane :)
September 16th, 2015 at 1:13 pm
Needed this! ♡
September 16th, 2015 at 1:37 pm
Ashton this I 100% feel you!!! I often get so frazzled and I also have to “pep” myself up! Thanks for the post <3!
September 16th, 2015 at 1:41 pm
Such a raw and honest post. Great advice Ashton!!
September 16th, 2015 at 2:04 pm
I think it’s great to step back and reflect and compare yourself now to the you that started. We all have goals and ambitions, but praise yourself once in awhile for how far you’ve come.
Beautiful photo at the top, btw!
September 16th, 2015 at 3:55 pm
Great post, Ashton, and something we all need to be reminded of at one point or another!
September 16th, 2015 at 4:23 pm
This is such a sweet post, Ashton!!
September 16th, 2015 at 8:38 pm
Love this! You are so right, girl. I needed this today!
September 16th, 2015 at 9:12 pm
This is almost like a poem. I love it and you girl! You inspire me so much to take chances and dare to dream! Thank you for being everything that you are ❤️
September 16th, 2015 at 10:41 pm
What an incredible post Ashton! This is why I love you!
September 17th, 2015 at 6:10 pm
I love love loved this post!! You are so right!!